Smart & Angry

So who exactly is Justa?

Justa is the short version of Justajust

I self glossed this name when a local radio DJ (by the name of Jigga Juice) that was hosting a lunch time hard body contest in high school was asking me what my name was after the event. True story!

I really like that name though. Justa... Maybe it's because that is the one I gave myself which is why I truly embrace it instead of the many other names that I have been called through my life. That are not me.

So just who am I? For one I am a failure. I have lost jobs, broken promises, hurt people, lost friendships, etc. Now why would I tell you that? First off because failing is part of the growing process in life. Falling down is not the same as giving up. I have fallen very far down in life and have thought many times about giving up, yet I haven't and the only reason I probably haven't is cause I really like the life that I live in all actuality. Plus ... all the wonderful friends and family and experiences that God has blessed me with.

So whats so amazing about my life you ask?

Well besides the giant Millennium Falcon that mom brought me last Christmas? Everything! Like I said before I have a lot of great friends. More so then having not so great friends. The guy who started this blog SmartandAngry.com is a good friend of mine in fact. He and I actually have a lot of fun conversations about music and entertainment that go unpublished for the sake of greater good. Oh...and if the FBI ever post records of some of those conversations online....the music and movie industry would quickly shut our blog down for good.

Another thing that makes this life interesting is where I am located in Fresno, CA(gasp, screams and other horror abounds on readers faces!). Not as bad as it sounds though... honestly Fresno has taught me some valuable lessons about life.

*Never trust Big Businesses too much(my town has way to many Wal-Marts and Starbucks)

*U can have a lot of fun in this world with out becoming a workaholic, drug addict, alcoholic, conservative christian or a jerk.
Called using your imagination. Willy Wonka had a good song about it. Honestly you have be very creative to be semi sane here. Or
you just become prey to one those for mentioned outcomes.

* Never try to drink a gallon of milk when your lactose intolerant.(kinda of goes with being creative)

* Most radio stations don't play " the hottest music", or throw " the hottest concerts" nor " the hottest parties". No exceptions on this one.

*God did not make churches. People make churches. In my town people made too many of them.

*You want to live and invest in a strong community(or you get too many Wal-Marts,Starbucks and Churches doing little to build your community at all)

*Cars are overrated & walking is a lost past time.

*Bros aren't cool in any situation.

*Patience is necessary to gain understanding in life.

*Nothing wrong with leaving home, you can always come back.

Oh so my way too cool town has not been enough to get you stoked about my life yet, huh? Well I do have this creative bug in me that loves art, music, movies and literature.
I also have recently been recording music in studio after a almost 5 year absence. Beginning a album in the making that is going to be a thing of beauty in time. Notice how I didn't mention what the project would give me like say gaining national attention, going platinum, making money or gaining a major label contract. That is because that is not should never be the goal behind being creative. Yes I do have goals to reach with this project. But never would I subject myself to such a broken system where you trade freedom for fame? Next!

I have come to appreciate my country the good ol' USA. Not in a Red, White and Blue, kill Commies, Toby Keith kind of way. But in this is a beautiful, bountiful place to live way. Is it THAT much better then any other country? I don't know? Haven't traveled outside it enough yet. Every place has it's pros and cons I guess. Some...you fear for your life everyday, and here you don't fear for your soul enough. I also don't believe in the American Dream. Since there is no such thing. America has and will always be an experiment with the control factor being humanity and morality. There are tons of right things we do here that are amazing. But at the same time there are just as many things wrong that could make you Emo in a heartbeat. I choose to embrace the positives more, but recognize the short comings of the USA are not because of the land. But the imperfect humans that occupy it.

At this current point my life those listed below mean very little to me.

*becoming wealthy

*arguments

*holding grudges

*hating on others


Life honestly is to short for any of these to become my main focus I decided. Easier said then done, but true.

Alright seriously if you made it this far I commend you. Reading is fundamental. Key word... Fun! But I will not force you to read too much more now I promise. I just wanted to give you a "brief" summary about me. Where I am now could be a little different tomorrow, yet know that I am at the core of it all a pretty funny, intelligent, handsome young man for you single ladies out there who are reading this.

Now I have one last question to leave you with after reading all this, Do you still look at failure the same?

Justa
May 12, 2009